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Jen Shahis opening up about the day shereported to federal prisonlast month.
The Real Housewives of Salt Lake City’s husband,Sharrieff, hopped on her Instagram account Thursday to share her first journal entry since entering Bryan Federal Prison Camp (FPC) in Texas. Explainingthe delay for her first-hand account, her husband said “there are individuals that review every single email and physical letter that goes out of that facility as well as comes in” at “most federal facilities around the country.” And because of that, he noted it “takes just a little time for inmates to send their correspondence.”
Shah said it “felt surreal” driving to Brayn FPC as she was “just minutes away from having to surrender,” calling it her “worst fear” as the “unimaginable was about to happen.”
“We approached the gates and were told to pull into a parking stall next to a white van. It all happened so fast. There was a guard waiting outside of our SUV, and two more officers approached, who I later found out was the Captain,” she explained. “I leaned over to the seat next to me and hugged Omar as tight as I could and cried as I buried my head in his chest and held him as tight as I could not wanting to face [the] reality that this would be the last time I hugged him for a while.”
“Sharrieff opened the back passenger seat, and I turned to embrace him; hugging him as if holding him harder would somehow erase this horrible nightmare,” she continued. “I wanted to remember his embrace, his smell, his touch. I held his face in both of my hands. As [I] looked into his eyes, tears streaming down my face, I told him he is the love of my life and I love him more than anything.”
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Shah had “seconds” to express her love for her husband “while officers stand there silently urging you to move quickly.” For her, it felt as if her world was “ending.”
After the Bravolebrity and her loved ones embraced in a group hug, an officer escorted her toward the prison. She was then questioned about the items in her clear plastic bag, which was meant to hold the essential items she could take with her to Bryan FPC. She’s allowed to keep some items, including her medications and the papers containing her prescription, but she was prohibited from bringing in her contact list, Quran and driver’s license. She returned the banned items to her husband.
“I felt so alone and my husband and son were only 2 steps away from me,” she said.
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“We then walk across the yard to open the doors where my reality will now be Federal Prison Camp. I turn to get one last glance at my husband and son. I wave at them for the last time before I enter the doors,” she continued. “My entire body is numb, I feel like my life is ending, and I am truly scared. I want to run back into my husband’s arms because I know he will make this nightmare end.”
Added Shah, “I feel physically sick. I feel like I don’t belong here. I thought I could do this but I’ve decided I can’t. I want to go home right now, but I know that is impossible. Please Allah help me, please.”
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Shahreported to prisonon Feb. 17 to serve 6.5 years after beingarrestedtwo years earlier for running a nationwide telemarketing fraud scheme. Though she initially pleaded not guilty in April 2021, her assistant Stuart Smithpled guiltyin November 2021. And while Shah initially maintained her innocence, shereversed her pleain July 2022.
Before reporting to prison, Shah’s attorney Priya Chaudhryspoke out on her behalfin a statement to PEOPLE.
Shah will have five years of supervision after her release.
source: people.com
